I JUST SIMPLY DON'T HAVE A CLUE WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME NOWADAYS. KEEP GETTING ALL HIGH AND CRAZY AND WILD FOR NO VALID REASON. MY WIRES ARE SERIOUSLY SCREWED UP LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. AND WHENEVER I GET INTO PURE MADNESS, I BECOME SO LAME AND LAUGHY THAT NOBODY CAN STAND ME. OH GOSH. BUT I JUST CANNOT CONTROL MYSELF! AND THE WEIRD THING IS, I ALWAYS GET A SPLITTING BLOODY IRRITATING HEADACHE AFTER THOSE MOMENTS AND I FEEL THAT THE WORLD IS REALLY SPINNING AROUND ME. WHICH SUCKS.
9:33:00 PM
Self-worth is NOT based on performance. It's not what you do that gives yourself a particular value or position or what not. You don't have to go out of your way and try so hard just to do something great and incredible in order to earn the nod of agreement or acceptance or whatever shit from others. Why should you give a damn to how people look at you? Everyone has their own opinion and besides, surely you can't make everybody to like you, right? It's pointless to do stuff just for the recognition of others. You don't have to specially do things to please people. What matters the most is your desire, what you really want to achieve, not because of any other external reasons, but because you want to do it for yourself, you feel good when you attain that specific standard or reach that goal you've set for yourself. Anyway, it isn't as if you have to get some noble, superior to prove that you're worthy to be loved! I'm 101% sure that those who love you will love you as who you are. They won't love you less when you suffer a setback or failed to achieve something, nor will they love you more because you've managed to match their expectations of you. People who truly care and are concerned about your well-being, will take you as you are and appreciate you for all your faults, quirks and basically your whole person. All because you are who you are and they love you! (:
9:09:00 PM
曾经，你带给我不少的快乐；只不过，你的快乐我却给不起。
7:46:00 PM
I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY SURVIVED KEEPING MY HANDS OFF THE COMPUTER FOR LIKE THREE DAYS! Oh gosh. This is such a wonderfully huge achievement! :D
Haha. Anyway. There was the annual school lame jogathon last Friday and I hated the scorching bright sun which turned me into a stupid red lobster and then into a... 'cute' little half white half tanned weirdo now. Which sucks. Bleah. I didn't really run this year, just like every other year. Only sort of ran abit and walked most of the distance. And there's somebody whom called out '489 Jiayou!' (or was it '498 Jiayou!') when I walked passed around the area where the ending point was. Initially I didn't realise he was yelling my number, until Rachel told me the number's familiar. -___-''' Oh well. I'm curious who the hell that mysterious person is. =X
And the thing is, I'm kinda pissed off with the so-called 'higher authorities' in the organisation cause guess what? Your 'inferiors' are melting their asses off right under the burning red ball of fire, trying to tolerate as best as they can, and there you are, talking shit about the nice weather. Yeah. How about getting out of the comfortable cooling shade you're standing in and have a taste of the sufferings of 'common folk'? I bet in due time you'll be scurrying hastily into the safety of the shade. So much for caring about the welfare of us. Hah.
7:21:00 PM
很多事情，就算是在意也不见得如自己心意…
7:19:00 PM
I VOW NOT TO GOSSIP ANYMORE. Mouth, shut. Don't wish for things to get more out of hand, which already had. It's always so coincidental, that complicating stuff like these that cause us trouble and makes people fret, happens when the exam period nears.
Maybe, something is going on. Under the table, behind closed doors. Who knows, right? Stop all the guessing games, discontinue the suspicions, put an end to the mistrust. Or at the very least, try to.
Well, in my opinion, the best option is to not get ourselves involved! Though sometimes it's obviously pretty hard not to get bothered about things which really can get to you.
I just have a gut feeling that something negative is in the process of brewing and erupting...
And I sincerely hope I'm just reading too much into it.
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4 HUMILITY, I WANT A RED AND BLACK CLASS JERSEY! (:
THE ONLY THING CONSTANT IN LIFE IS CHANGE.
9:11:00 PM
I realised I've made it a habit to skip school at least once every single week for the past few weeks. Oh gosh. I should exercise more self-control and not get too attached to my bed in the morning! Haha. And I'm always absent on Wednesdays! Why why why? -___-'''
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I miss the way you told me you loved me. But that's what happens when a couple breaks up; the love fades and you have to get used to not hearing 'I miss you' or 'I love you' anymore. Then the rest of your days are spent on trying to let go, or trying to move on. Or maybe convincing that still hopeful heart of yours that there's a chance left in this world, that you'll both end up together again. After that you have to face the heartache that comes with the thought of your love being with someone else, and finally realize your chances of ever being with him again are getting thinner & thinner each day.
Why can't life just have a rewind, fastfoward, and pause button?That way, I can rewind back to when we were together, live through each moment knowing that you'll leave me. Then fastfoward through the present because I just can't deal with the depression around me. And then pause it at the best parts, the best moments we spent together. So I can freeze time before I have to say goodbye...
If you loved him, truly loved him, then you don't just 'get over' him. If you do, it wasn't even close to love. I think sometimes we just need to tell ourselves we're over him, because we're just not ready to realize, that a part of him is going to stay with you forever.
And one month had passed.
10:13:00 PM
AO IS THE BEST! She actually bought PURPLE CHOCOLATES FOR ME! Haha. Hershey's chocolate covered marshmallows with grape filling! NICE RIGHT! xD
I only like bugged her to buy something chocolatey and purplish for me and she really kept to her word! Wee~
ADELINE OH SHI YI I LOVE YOU TO BITSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! (:
And you're so super lame! -___-'''
I wrote 'Wang Da Dong' on my paper and she wrote 'Miao Xiao Xi'! Like, damn cold can! Haiyoyo. *shakes head*
Must be gotten influenced by me already. xP
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Went to Bugis with Pearlyn, Yvonne and Eileen after school to 'settle some stuff''! LOL. Sounds like some 'LIAN-ish' thing! Haha. Reached home at around eight and felt dead beat. Thank you. Anybody kind enough to rid me of my tiredness? =X
9:22:00 PM
Indeed, life has no clear-cut beginnings. Looking back on how we got to know each other, I cannot help but marvel at how fate intersects to bring people together, thereby setting in motion a sequence of events which would become so dear to one in the near future. Every single night, I tossed and turned in bed, and as if it was the most natural thing to do, my thoughts drifted back to those moment of happiness, like I was unearthing the past. Yes, I understand that I should put it all behind me. Yes, I know I should not keep dwelling on what had become history. But I was not compelled to forget everything, right? I had the freedom and right to relieve all the times we shared, and nobody, not a soul, had the power to stop me from doing so. No, it’s not that I did not try letting go. It’s just that the past had been too deeply etched in my mind, it’s impossible to forgo them as and when I liked. They are all seared in memory, so irremovable, or rather, too cherished for me to bear to erase. It’s as if he had issued an invitation to me to be part of his world, and since then, I had no longing to leave for the rest of my life. I loved him so much more than I had ever imagined possible, it’s even hard for me to believe. His departure dimmed the lights in my world, casting me into absolute darkness. From then on, feelings helplessness and emptiness overcame me. I abominated how the distance between us was getting more and more pronounced as time went by. I despised the solitude in my heart. I resented the fact that I actually felt I could not do without him. I detested my weakness for not taking things in my stride. I loathed my reliance on him. I hated knowing I was rid of from his life. Unknowingly, he had become so important to me, I could not fathom how I had been able live life before his appearance.
Every morning, I woke up still living in the past, thinking we were still happily together as a couple. Then reality would mercilessly hit me hard that no, it was not the case. There started my daily routine: to stare back blankly at the reflection in the mirror like the image of me was no one I knew of, allowing myself to space out for awhile, then forcibly lifting the corners of my mouth, telling to myself I was ready enough to face the day. Like that was all I needed to get through the day. Like, real.
The continual wave of emotions getting to me due to the reminiscence of memories as soon as I stepped out of the door was enough to wear me down, but I merely shrugged them off as best as I could.
Exhaustion had gradually become a permanent fixture in life; yet it was undue lethargy, without any reason or cause. I needed some quiet time to myself, I needed to relax and forget the world, without having to face anybody, without having to make any decisions, without having to think of the infinite ‘what-ifs’.
Perhaps if love and desires were nothing more than just theoretical possibilities which had no real bearing on the world, I would have been better off. Perhaps.
I admit I had not been around long enough or went through terrible enough things to have weathered real grief and pain, but losing him was more than enough for me to cry endlessly.
I wished I was just temporarily off track. I wished I would soon right myself again. I wished time would quickly pass and eventually I would grow to be so accustomed to the numbness.
Yet, as much as I tried to move on, I found my thoughts to be still drawn to him. Every little thing seems to remind me of him and immediately, his image would begin to conjure in my mind. I would then hold on to the ache like a drowning person grasping a life buoy.
To tell the truth,
I miss the feeling of the subtle rise and fall of his chest as I leaned against him.
I miss the familiar scent he always had on him.
I miss the way his fingers would naturally fill the spaces between mine as I slipped my hand into his.
I miss the messages, and him calling me ‘laopo!~’ cheerfully whenever I came online.
I miss him being around.
I miss the way we would smile as we caught sight of each other from a distance.
I miss how I was so comfortable and at ease when I was with him.
I miss his letters and writing him letters during class.
I miss feeling how nothing else in the world matters more than him.
I miss joking, laughing, bullying him.
I miss the silly lame things we did together.
I miss his words of comfort and encouragement whenever I was troubled or helpless.
I miss being there for him.
I miss how his eyes look into mine as I look into his.
I miss our retarded game of “ni, wo, ta”
I miss his thoughtfulness.
I miss the way he cares.
I miss the times he got worried when I replied his messages late.
I miss telling him “I love you”.
I miss how every time during each monthly anniversary we would wait till it was exactly midnight before sending a message to the other party and see who the faster one was.
I miss the sense of security he gave.
I miss warming his cold hand with mine.
I miss nagging incessantly at him.
I miss receiving his messages everyday.
I miss being his girlfriend.
I miss being in his life.
I miss everything about him.
I. Miss. Him.
Once upon a time, his cozy embrace had made me feel as if nothing in the world, neither a single person nor thing, would change this amazing chemistry between us. I would always hope to find some remnant of the wonderful feelings lingering in the atmosphere at various places we had been to. It’s so hard, so difficult, so impossible to banish the images of him from my mind. In the dead of the night, these thoughts would begin to surface more frequently, with more intensity and as I cuddled myself into a ball on my bed, the reality would bear down hard on me, then provoking my tear glands to get to work as weeping seems to be the only thing that could lighten my sorrows.
Many a times, I would wonder if he still gives a damn about me, whether he even cares now. Do I still matter? Or am I just another insignificant being who had barged my way into his life and having no choice, to leave by his ‘order’ after awhile?
I need peace. Maybe a place relatively isolated and largely uninterested in keeping up with the ever quickening pace of life elsewhere, somewhere ideal for gloomy people to escape and hide away from all other stuff, somewhere where one would be able to cast all his/her troubles and cares in the world away. Maybe after I got there, I would be empowered with the strength and courage to start all over again, and do my utmost best to move on. Maybe occasionally the past would return to haunt me, maybe it would still be a struggle at times, but surely it would not be as bad as it once had been. Then I would be able to get through this, this relationship which had taken an irreversible turn from the blissful one it formerly was, this relationship which had ended to become one of the darkest period of my life.
I dare not say that he was the best thing that ever happened to me, but I am 100% sure that the process of knowing him and getting together with him was one of the most significant and memorable events in my life that I would always remember and keep close to heart. I swear.
10:45:00 PM
TODAY IS SUPER FUNNY IN A FREAKY WAY! Haha. Woke up at eight plus and found life a bore. MY TELEVISION DIED ON US! Argh. No noisy drama serials blarring on and on and what not! T.T
Thus, I sprawled myself on the sofa and stared at the clock as it ticked away. -__-
After about three hours later I got my rotting self off the the comfy thing and went out to meet Pearlyn and Yvonne for HAPPY HOUR! Woohoo~
YEAH RIGHT. Being the hardworking, studious and good girls that we were, we went S-T-U-D-Y-I-N-G! Like it made any difference at all. Bleah. Actually Pearlyn and I reached Mos first, and Yvonne had the cheek to be late when she warned me not to! Humph. But yours truly is a nice, forgiving person so I let the matter rest. Lol!
Surprisingly, saw Minghui, Benjamin, Yan Ling and Janelle there too! They were like earlier than us. Haha. Not long after, Yvonne, Eileen and Shi Jia made their way to where we were also. Then, guess what. Joseph came too! I was like, "Woah, is today meant to be like a mini two endurance '05 gathering?!" xD
It's like almost 1/4 of our secondary two class was there! And we didn't know any of us was going there today at that time! So coincidental man! Haha. Not bad, this proves that we have the telepathy and fate to stay together!
Pearlyn and I left around two plus for our first Chemistry lesson at Bishan. And it rained HAMSTERS and BUNNIES as soon as we reached! >.<
Dampen our moods man. Haha. While waiting for our bus to the tuition place, we saw familiar faces again. This time it's Joel and some other four guys. And and we stupidly EMBARRASSED ourselves totally! Cause it was pouring heavily, and there was also thunder and stuff. Suddenly this person calling my number and right after I said hello, THERE WAS THIS SCARY GREAT BIG THUNDER AND I SCREAMED INTO THE PHONE LOUDLY. And everybody at the bus stop turned to look at us. *blush* Then I realised that person who called was Pearlyn's mum so I practically threw my phone at her and urged her to talk to her mum herself. Cause I read this report in the papers before and a girl was talking on her mobile while it was raining and streak lightning stroke her! Damn frightening can. I don't want to die that way! Haha. Pearlyn was super afraid too, she quickly said something and ended the call, throwing the phone back at me. =.='''
Finally our bus arrived and we got drenched by the effing heavy rain- just because of that I'm having a slight fever right now. >.<
And we didn't lose our way to the tuition place! All thanks to clever me! Haha. Chemistry tuition was freaking cold with the air conditioner blowing down to us on full blast. ):
Pearlyn and I were rather talkative through out the whole lesson. The worksheet given to us should be easy, but I didn't have a single clue how to fill in the blank spaces with the correct answers. *waves a little white flag helplessly* I'm officially dead. Who wants to save me? =\
9:13:00 PM
The person who first made up that warped logic that today's an unlucky has totally miscalculated his theory. Haha. Anyway.
HAPPY INTERNATIONAL FRIENDSHIP DAY! (:
Around two third of the class were good sports and wore HAWAIIAN ATTIRE today! Pretty purple orchids at the side of our ears! And the guys super look like tourists! xD
Actually it's kinda embarrassing when we made our way to the hall for assembly. Cause it's like we were the only class wearing non-school uniform stuff. But still, it's our last year in secondary school already! So who cares man! Haha. Oh. I think T.M is damn lame. As if he's some big shot. Tsktsk.
Basically, I think love is a feeling.
It's that feeling you get when you know you are going to see that person.
You're always counting down the minutes, the hours, the days, or even the
months until you will see him again.
Cause you love that feeling you have when you're with him.
You know that butterfly, giggly, warm,
this-smile-is-never-gonna-leave-my-face feeling?
Love is a feeling of happiness and contentment.
Being in the arms of him means that everything will be
okay and even if it's really not going to be, you get a feeling
that he'll do whatever he can to make it be, or just to try to make you feel
better.
It's that feeling that you are loved for who you are, and you
love him for who he is.
Every bit of them, no matter how obnoxious or out of character it may seem
at times.
It's about how you love to brag about them and annoy your friends
cause half the things he say or do really isn't all that sweet and is
really overly corny, but you can't care less cause that, to you is special.
It's about how he's the first one you want to talk to when
anything is good or bad, and how you are always learning something
new, no matter how long you have been dating.
It's about CHANGING & being a new person.
Not necessarily changing your ways or who you are, but wanting to
be different and a better person simply cause that person is in your
life and you want to be everything to
them...
12:37:00 AM
It's back to the dumb homeroom system again. Seriously, IT SUCKS. Oh well. Nevermind. At least we get to move around only on the first floor. School was a total bore as usual. Had lunch at Northpoint's food court with Pearlyn, Yvonne, YinXiu, Jason, Zikeng and Limei. I stole Zikeng's fishball noodles. He's mad one, ate one set of steak already still buy more food. Haha. And Jason was like so funny during tuition just now! Laugh until his ear turned bright red. Lol! After tuition, around eight plus, met up with Yvonne and Pearlyn to make a trip to Sun Plaza for 'hunting'! Bought a nice soft purple shawl thing for tomorrow! (:
PHSSB MEMBERS DON'T BE SO SAD! AT LEAST YOU'VE CLINCHED A BRONZE FOR THE SCHOOL! Better than nothing right? Cheer up man! :D
10:43:00 PM
心裡面要想一個數字，用它加上52.8 ，再乘以5 ，然後減去3.9343 ，再除以0.5，最後再減去心裡想的那個數的十倍，答案很浪漫哦！
5:33:00 PM
1-初級客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！
客服員：「嗚...........」( 哭泣聲)
2-中級客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！」
客服員：「這位先生請息怒，有什麼可以為您服務的嗎？」
3-高級客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！」
客服員：「家母身體很好，謝謝您的關心。」
4-專業客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！」
客服員：「家母身體很好，謝謝您的關心。那....你娘咧？」
5-超級客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！」
客服員：「這通電話已錄音存證，本公司將保留一切法律追訴之權利。」
6-終極客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！」
客服員：「請稍後，馬上為您轉接！.......」(電話放一旁，讓客戶一直等候...)
7-無敵客服
客戶來電劈頭大罵：「你娘咧！」
客服員：「啊死囝仔..竟然在你祖媽上班時間打電話來鬧..返去你就知死..」
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人 = 吃飯 + 睡覺 + 上班 + 玩,
豬 = 吃飯 + 睡覺,
代入: 人 = 豬 + 上班 + 玩,
即: 人 - 玩 = 豬+上班.
結論: 不懂玩的人 = 上班的豬。
男人 = 吃飯 + 睡覺 + 賺錢
豬 = 吃飯+ 睡覺
男人 = 豬 + 賺錢豬 = 男人 - 賺錢
所以: 男人不賺錢等於豬。
女人= 吃飯 + 睡覺 + 花錢。
豬 = 吃飯 + 睡覺。
代入上式得：女人= 豬 + 花錢。
移項得：女人- 花錢 = 豬。
結論: 女人不花錢都是豬。
綜合以上:男人為讓女人不變成豬而賺錢。
女人為讓男人不變成豬而花錢。
男人 + 女人 = 兩頭豬!
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有一對離婚夫妻正為孩子的歸屬權各持己見......
妻：『孩子是我茹苦含莘十月懷胎才生出來的，所以孩子應該是屬於我的。』
夫：『妳是不是沒用過自動販機啊！ 如果我投10元進去，掉下一瓶飲料，那這瓶飲料是我的還是自動販賣機的？』
妻：『 ...』
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1.阿婆生子→真拼
2.阿婆穿戴安芬→勿會博假博(不會裝會)
3.阿嬤生子→公暢(說著高興的)
4.阿嬤生查某子→生姑(發霉)
5.老人吃紅蟳→管無效(講也沒有用)；(管=紅蟳的腳)
6.老人吃麻油雞→老熱(熱鬧)
7.乞食揹葫蘆→假仙
8.乞食拜墓→褻祖公
9.乞食過溪→行李濟(多)
10.水肥車排歸排→拖屎連
11.整棵好好→沒剉(沒有錯)
12.大官娶細姨→加婆(雞婆)
13.囝仔穿大人衫→大套(大輸)
14.囝仔跌倒→媽媽呼呼(馬馬虎虎)
15.囝仔坐火車→嘟嘟好(剛剛好)
16.便所底彈吉他→臭彈(吹牛)
17.老鼠入牛角→穩篤篤(一定會)
18.吃紅柿配燒酒→存辦死(找死、想死)
19.接骨師父→湊手腳
20.鴨蛋丟過山→看破
21.青盲娶某→暗爽
22.生理人抬大肥→賣屎(不行)
23.笨貓爬樹→不成猴
24.蒼蠅戴龍眼殼→蓋頭蓋臉(不知死活)
25.十二月睏屋頂→凍霜(吝嗇)
26.十二月南風→現報
27.十二月屎桶→盡拼(全部豁出去了)；(拼=清乾淨)
28.十二月風箏→瘋到沒尾(瘋狂至極)29.澎湖菜瓜→十嶺(雜唸)；(嶺=紋路)
30.傳家佛經→世世唸(碎碎唸)
31.上帝公博輸交→當龜(摃龜)
32.火燒罟寮? 鬙L網(? 馴S有希望了)
33.尻川夾火金姑→椴青(裝蒜)
34.墓仔埔做大水→溼墓(失望)
35.幼稚園招生→老不收(老不修)
36.有樓無梯→欠梯(欠打)
37.廟仔遭賊偷→失神
38.棺材底放炮→吵死人
39.老鼠沒洗澡→有鼠味(有趣味)
40.夯石頭鎮大路→絕交
41.阿兄住樓上→哥哥在上(高高在上)
42.阿兄沒頭路→閒哥(鶯歌)
43.六月割菜→假有心
44.六月棉被→揀人蓋
45.孫悟空做投手→豬哥承(豬哥神)
46.麥芽糖罐→愛人譙(罵)
47.秀才包袱巾→包書(包輸)
48.羅漢請觀音→主人恰濟過人客
49.蒸籠蓋蓋沒密→漏氣
50.腳底抹油→溜
51.番仔嘴鬚→沒半批(什麼都不會)
52.牽豬哥丟掉錢→沒彩滫
53.蚊子叮Lan Pa→難打
54.頷頸生瘤→抵到了
55.和尚夯雨傘→無髮無天(無法無天)
56.和尚划船→沒髮渡(沒法度)
57.田中間建廟→種宮(正經)
58.有應公的童乩→講鬼話
59.十全減兩味→八珍
60.七月半鴨→不知死活
61.煙筒管破孔→壞管(難說)
62.剃頭店公休→沒理髮(沒你法)
63.甘蔗歸叢哺→沒斬節
64.隱龜拋車麟→吃力兼難看
65.隱龜泅水→彎泅(冤仇)
66.隱龜落崎→栽栽(知知)
67.隱龜放屁→彎彎翹翹
68.隱龜娶大肚→都都好
69.缺齒吃蛤肉→密密
70.北港廟壁→畫仙(話仙)
71.日本清飯→壽司(輸死)
72.外省仔麵→免啦
73.路邊的尿桶→眾人旋(罵)
74.二十兩→斤四(近視)
75.十五尊的土地公，分兩邊→七土八土
76.黑人吃火炭→黑吃黑
77.十角→一塊散散(一個人散散的)
78.天公的帳簿→大冊(大氣)
79.火燒豬頭皮→面熟
80.火燒墓仔埔→煙鬼
81.保護三藏去取經→要猴(著猴)
82.屬豬→亥了(壞了)
83.灶孔炰鱔魚→燒鰻(相瞞)
84.歹看面→面雄(地民：民雄)
85.坐轎的不知扛轎的辛苦→到擔你才知(到現在你才知道)
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-有一對男女正在吃晚餐-
那個女生一直問那個男生：你愛不愛我？
男生看了女生一眼又繼續吃晚餐女生很生氣又再問了一次：你愛不愛我？
男生終於說：愛
女生又問：那你要怎麼證明？
忽然男生從口袋裡拿了三十元出來， 然後問女生：你有沒有十元？
女生拿了十元給了男生...
男生就把四十元放在桌上過了一會兒...女生很生氣的問男生：你到底要不要證明你愛我啊 !
男生說：我己經證明了啊!!!
四十擺在眼前……
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4:30:00 PM
I OFFICIALLY PROCLAIM MY DISLIKING FOR MAOMAO! Eww. All because of him and his 'great' ideals and policies and what not, I'm still up at this hour writing notes about some dumb Cultural Revolution thing. MY HAND IS ACHING LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. Aye, nevermind. I shall endure and try to bear with the excruciating pain at my palm and wrist. Argh. HISTORY TEST TOMORROW! What good news. Oh. I almost forgot there's Amaths too. Fine. Let's all wait for me to die~
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Have you ever thought you were over someone until you saw them again? All the feelings that were there rushed back.. All the memories.. All the wonderful words spoken between the two of you come to mind. Now everytime I see him, I fall in love all over again- the only problem is I know he doesn't seem to feel the same...
12:24:00 AM
I'm not naive and I'm not stupid. I've been broken before. I can deal with it. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm afraid of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road that you were my life.
11:05:00 PM
BAK BAK'S HERE! FASTER STAND! WAHAHAHA! xD
I was like super damn lame the whole day! Pearlyn! Faster thank BAK BAK for making you laugh every single moment you're with her! I'm nice okay, at least I lifted your spirits high up into the heavens, way beyond the clouds! Heh heh.
AND FOR GOODNESS' SAKE, LET'S ALL STOP GOSSIPING AND TALKING ABOUT THE PAST WHEN WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING! Yvonne too! xP
Today's the NINTH, THE NINTH, THE N-I-N-T-H! Aha.
10:55:00 PM
Ong Jian Fan, thank you for being irritating! Haha. Not bad man, so much for being persistant huh? Spam messages, calls, on my mobile still not enough. Dialed my house number somemore to wake me up! =.='''
Alright. I have to admit that church wasn't so bad today. HoGC is one friendly place to be! At least I did laugh at people's expense! Ahem. =X
Anyway.
HAPPY EASTER! (:After all this time you'd think I wouldn't feel the same; But time doesn't stand for anything cause my feelings for you haven't changed one bit... If only i had one wish I'd want a million trillion lifetimes that I could spend with you; I'd fall in love with you again and again.
Oh. Today's the third Sunday without him.
10:24:00 PM
I know that there are some things you just can't change.
I know that there are some situations where apologies hold no bearings.
I know that hurt feelings build walls.
I know that some people connect once and are bonded for a lifetime.
I know that in a different time and place we were those people.
I know that being "friends again" can be more difficult than not speaking at all.
I know that twists of fate bring people together and sometimes "everything happens for a reason" breaks them apart.
I know that I'll never forget you, for you'll always have a place in my heart.
When there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. Because the best things in life, they don't come free.
I REALISED I AM QUITE A CHATTERBOX WHEN I'M WITH LOVED ONE. We talked the whole time we were together! Not bad man! (:
And and,
I LOVE AVOCADO JUICE!Super nice can! xD
Oh. We went to this korean supermart place at Bugis after movie at Cineleisure and they sell Maplestory drinks! There's bottles with Wraith figures and Zombie Lupins! Haha. Cute! ^^
10:47:00 PM
INSOMIA AGAIN! Oh no. I need to get relaxed and not be so tensed and stressed up. Problems, troubles shoo shoo shoo! When will I ever get a good night's rest? When will my thoughts stop flowing uneccessarily and unconstructively? When will I keep pondering and thinking over stuff that won't change any time soon? Ah! This is going pretty out of hand already! I'm tired physically and emotionally, yet my mind's still mentally active! Guess I'm turning into a nocturnal creature real soon. HELP! )':
1:32:00 AM
何维健! (:
10:40:00 PM
Perhaps Love(中文版)何時才能開始 再能與你相見
每一天的等待 反而變成我的無耐
我的回憶 都快沒有畫面
只有你的出現 才能擦掉我心中的不安
雖然我想很多 有時候
心情卻變得很沉默
只好甩掉一切 讓你知道我對你的愛
好想對你說 不管距離多遙遠 永遠不會變
因為在我心中 你是我最愛
很想趕快告訴你 卻少了勇氣 只能默默守護你
你會覺得我很傻 但這也許可能是 Perhaps Love
現在我的心情 無法向你說明
其實只有你能感受到我對你的感情
不必害怕面對你的愛
因為愛彼此在心中
永遠不會分開 你能接受我對你的愛
好想對你說 不管距離多遙遠 永遠不會變
因為在我心中 你是我最愛
很想趕快告訴你 卻少了勇氣 只能默默守護你
你會覺得我很傻 但這也許可能是 Perhaps Love
甜美的微笑 停留在我腦海
幸福的旋律 寫了一首美麗歌曲
時光雖然不能倒流 我陪你到最後
我們的相遇 就好像是一場夢 別讓它睡醒
因為在我心中 你是我最愛
我願意付出一切 好好去愛你 我不會讓你離開
我會永遠愛著你(深深的愛你)
直到天長地久(唯一的最愛) Love You
Here's the link:
http://www.jujihoonhk.com/8185241.mp3
5:05:00 PM
Not even the mighty sky could fill the place you left behind, not even when it rains. No, nothing takes your place; your emptiness is too great to fill.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it. But it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
Anyway,
HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL! (:
11:18:00 PM
'JUNE Seventeen year old gemini with random hyperactivity. Loves ambiguity, oxymorons, quotes and the beauty of words. Laming is her forte. Has absolutely no concept about time. Fetish for sexy ears and rabbit teeth. Wants to go on a globe trotting adventure. Can never resist food, especially potato, tofu and eggs. A sucker for rainy days.
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